seriously i feel fucked up everytime i skype with my younger brother. instead of hearing people talking, i only hear stupid noises coming out from his stupid game. and to think i actually woke up early to do that? fucked up. i was so annoyed i told him "ahh u go play ur game lah" and i hanged up without even saying byebye. seriously..

the patch i've been wanting really much.. in exchange for a new pair of US gloves.. haha, i think this is just a copy of the original one, cuz the font is very "nice" in a sense.. the other ones that i've seen has the really shit hot looking font, i dont know how to describe it, but it really looks like the punisher's here! haha..

i bought the PAF patch for 10 euros too, there are a few other designs available and i intend to get them as they're currently out of stock.. PATCHES!

FUCK. I BROKE MY RETAINER. FUCK. 300+ sgd, but that's not the problem. the problem is how am i going to get it replaced?

voila! finally flew after being kept on the ground for so long.. feels really good.. i really like it when the instructor reminds us that what matters most is enjoying the flight. sometimes we're over concerned by grades and things like that and we tend to forget why we were here. it's to enjoy the flight yea?

flew with captain prats twice.. he was the solo display in the movie "skyfighters" (French title Les Chevaliers du ciel) haha, 100ft above ground, how about that?

it's true that when u enjoy what you're doing, u don't work, u only have fun. for me, even though i touched down at 530pm and had to plan for next morning's mission at 8am, i was tired but happy that night even though i could only slp at 11+ cuz it all paid off during the mission when there were nothing but praises for me.. my level is about 7 flights ahead, which also means i can use the upcoming 7 flights to improve on my current standard and hope i will do really well for this first phase at least..

haha, i think my body is amazing, no matter wad time i sleep, i'll always wake up 645, 830, and 1030 before i can't slp anymore..

going down to the squadron after lunch to fill up the briefing board for a flight that will probably be cancelled. this sucks. come on god, i really wanna chop chop finish with the props. bring me the jets.

haha, i think the ability to pick up a new language is funny. we take so long to learn the proper things, but all for the vulgarities it's always fast. when we were watching harold and kumar last night, there was this part the guy said "c'est quoi ton putain de probleme" and all of us burst out laughing.. essentially it meant "what's your fucking problem"

it's about another 2 wks before i get allowance and pay again. and i feel that i've barely worked. i'm not complaining about the money. i'm complaining cuz I NEEED WORK.

sometimes, when i try to de-stress, i end up getting more stressed from other sources.. after work, i went for a run, which was supposed to help me destress.. but in the process of doing that, once again i've been reminded of how unfit i am. ippt coming in april, medical checkup coming somewhere around july.. sigh.

there's simulator briefing tmr, and i'm scheduled to fly monday and tuesday for now. i'm excited yes, but kinda dreading it also. there's only 1 reason why one would feel that way. the instructor has really high standards.. and he kinds of look down on us, cuz the 2 senior batches has pulled down the previously high standards that the pioneer batches set. sigh. i really want to do well, i want to be the best here and when i go back, i want to be the best too. maybe it's because i'm young and i still believe. no doubt i've been disillusioned slightly, but still..

i used to have stronger feelings when i put on my work clothes. i used to feel good, now i feel slightly lesser than that. perhaps i've been on the ground for far too long.

as expected, i did not fly today. somehow i was hoping a miracle would happen so i can finally get off the chair in the classroom. sigh.

tmr i'm supposed to fly in the morning. i did all the mission planning and stuffs already. only thing is the weather doesn't seem too good. the lady at the meteo office says "stong winds from south east 40kts, moderate rain all day long, very very cloudy at 2500ft"

in the afternoon it's supposed to be 2 tests, and i'm not really 100% at both. sigh. doesn't it suck to be unprepared? i dont even know if i'm under prepared, or under confident.

btw, i've got free dinner today because the guy at the cashier happens to always play soccer together with us.. when i saw him i greeted him in french, we shook hands, he scanned my card cuz there was someone around, and when the person walked away, he cancelled the order. lol, free dinner. NICE.

i never learn do i? gambling is NOT good. lol. not even cards for cny. it's a vice!

the trip to cazaux was really good, i feel "at home" and it's really nice to know there's a "governing body" we can turn to help for. also, it's the first time in my life i see the big big firecrackers and it's really loud haha!

180km.h seems pretty cool, the excuse i gave myself was "to come back quickly so i could still catch pple online to wish them happy cny" but i suppose there's always a reason to speed. haha. sometimes u cant help it, the road conditions are good, there are no cameras. wad would u do?

hopefully i can start flying this wednesday, there might be winds of 20km.h with gusts of 55km.h but i HOPE the weather will improve cuz SITTING IN THE BLOODY CLASSROOM IS KILLING ME!

happy cny to all!

haha, had the MUCH AWAITED CPUT lessons by captain ferroux today.. that's supposed to be all the departure and arrival routes and height we should abide by, but we've already learnt it by heart, google earth-ed it during the 5 weeks delay. coach needs to stop calling us "secretaries"

anyway, topped up the engine oil for the car today. when we opened the bottle, all of us were expecting to see BLACK engine oil. turns out that it's a bit pale yellowish. so we called coach and asked if it's the right one.. guess wad he said.. "it's the right one, WHY ARE U LOOKING FOR BLACK OIL? oh my god."

i just did a check on my french bank account. and i cant believe they charged 6 euros just for process fees. wth.. and phonebill is expensive lol. sigh, and my allowance started dropping already. 1.5k for the month. =( gotta start saving already i guess..

haha, this is my early cny dinner, cuz we wont be here from thursday to sunday as we're going to sg squadron in cazaux (pronounced as kah-zoh, and not wad all the other pilots always call, kah-zoo)

DISCLAIMER: FOOD ALERT!! don't be jealous of the food.

CLAYPOT RICE ;) this was really the best..

for our steamboat, the closest we could get to it..

soaked dried scallops.. really wasted all of it cuz there wasn't any taste in any of the food. ahha

nice, i just got pawned by my brother. he completely ignored my requests to skype.. haha and he wasn't online last weekend either.. hope he'll be tmr.

anyway, some stupid pictures.

dinner prep..

after the trip to pelisanne's sunday market..

when cyrille was drunk..

when the squadron toilet was spoilt and gab couldn't hold it any longer.

i won the shootout and the pot of 11 euros..

wad the hell.

yea baby

when the pullup bar was still in service.

DOTA!

tanky snowballed.

i hope this lasts, and we all can stay here for more stupid things.

here's a pic of the damage..

more photos about life here soon..

ahhh fuck, yet another bang on the car, this time on the left of the rear.. BOO. ok this was wad happened-

after work, we decided to go down to this hypermart that's slightly further away, about 15 mins drive away.. so, after we were done, we were on our way home. jon yap was the driver.. he took a wrong turn at the carpark of the supermarket, and we kinda went up the pedestrian lane, and dead end. at the end of the road, he had to make a 3 point turn. since there were pillars and kerbs all over the place i thought he would make a few more turns but he was insistent on turning as much as he could.. and as he was reversing and it was too near, i said "STOP, STOP NOW!" i was sitting behind so i had a really clear view on the rear.. 1 second later, "bang, eeeeee" and the metal scratched against the "wall looking thing"

my heart aches for the car. maybe that's why pple who just passed their driving tests should not buy a brand new car. 2 bangs in 3 weeks, wtf?

enough about the car. another lesson learnt today, when u see CANNED LONGANS on the shelf, TAKE IT! haha i saw at least 20 cans on the shelf, half an hour later everything was gone, only left with canned lychees and rambutans and mangoes.. BUT I ONLY WANT LONGANS!!!! i was totally lost, standing there staring blankly at the shelf mumbling "where are the longans? i want the longans.. where did they go??"